Posted: Friday, April 1
A familiar disagreement broke out amongst Jesus’ disciples. I call it familiar, because it’s the same conflict that often arises in our own hearts today. As these men walked along the road with their Servant-King, Jesus, they began to banter about who is the greatest amongst them. Each wanted the first place position on the podium, to be recognized for who they are and what they bring to the team. They saw the disciple standing next to them as a stepping stone and if they could get enough of their companions “underneath” them, they might just achieve that high place. They wanted the spotlight, they fought to be recognized, and they desired to be first, but the way of Jesus is totally opposite to this type of thinking.
I’ve discovered that our hearts want what they want and at times they want what’s in opposition to God’s best. There’s an insidious battle that takes place inside of all of us between the will of God and the will of our heart. Sometimes our heart is in line with what God wants and other times it’s not. Like the disciples, we desire to be first, to be recognized, to be appreciated, and to be seen as better than those around us. Just like the disciples, we struggle with pride. I’m so glad that Jesus stands on the front line of that inner war, and in the hail of the bullets and bombs, we hear our Saviors voice and we see our Lord’s example. He empowers us to choose to be servants, to fight for last place, to give sacrificially, to serve in the shadows, and to elevate those around us. He transforms our hearts to be like His so that we would do what He does.
In her introspective poem, “I Wonder,” Ruth Harms Calkin wrote:
You know, Lord, how I serve You with great emotional fervor in the limelight.
You know how eagerly I speak for You at a Women’s Club.
You know my genuine enthusiasm at a Bible study.
But how would I react, I wonder, if You pointed to a basin of water and asked me to wash the callused feet of a bent and wrinkled old woman day after day, month after month, in a room where nobody saw and nobody knew?